BRAVE NEW VOICES - ALYSIA HARRIS THAT GIRL LYRICS

We got that waiting in the clinic silence.

That shhh don't tell nobody what we did silence

and I'm so tired of being your hamper that I'm about to dump out those week old ketchup stained secrets and do laundry in that silence

you like keeping it quite.

But my vagina is not your walk in closet.

You wanna stuff your unmentionables through me, wanna place to hang up your insecurities, want me to keep check of your hand-me downs and Prada, waiting for every occasion to put me back behind closed doors and in the darkness.

Nobody knows you hold my hand and nobody knows I call you baby and nobody knows you write anonymous poems about me

the type you can't post on Face book.

Because regardless of what you may think I'm worth, or what you may think I deserve.

I will never be that girl, the girl that's only allowed to make you smile when she is making you orgasm,

that girl whose day job is daydreaming waiting for her night job.

That girl who's so in love she'll turn her body over for your superficial touch.

You hide me behind lock doors and bed sheets because if you dare reached out then everybody would know that it was still about me.

So that in your heart and in your mind your still wrapped up in me.

My teardrops you own them, my hearts says you got them tied around your pencils and figures.

Yea, you may say it's over and you may never tell me that you love me

but you don't have to cause your silence speaks volumes.

You wanna hold me in your arms rock me to sleep then act like you dont know me.

As if the moments we spent together are some kind of down payment.

As if my bedroom were lay away

and that's all you ever do is layaway, curl up beside me but in the morning pull up the hoodie and run the other way.

I'm like that bastard child

the reason why Daddy never stuck around in the first place

but for me rejection doesn't come every other weekend.

It comes when you lower your head and pass by without speaking

and I remember there was a time you could barely take your eyes off me.

I just don't understand why it's not okay for you to love me.

I guess... you just want me to be that girl.

The girl who everybody wants to sleep with but nobody wants to be with.

That girl who's only good enough for finding a suitable replacement.

Not trying to make up for the mistakes.

but you convince yourself that she means everything and you...

want nothing to do with me but come on baby she looks just like me!

Read the signs or at least ..

it's not the facial features cause I was your first, you're only, the prototype and she's just a duplicate

and you can never make copies without first consulting the blueprint!

You know what they say the sequel is never better than the original.

And she tries to write you stories but their only half as good,

so half squinting you only hold her half as tight as you should.

Because your other half is tangled between my bed sheets,

and your other half is complete within my mind, soul, and body,

and your other half is French tonguing me Monday through Friday.

I'm not fighting for joint custody.

I'm fighting for RESPECT!

because I will never be content with being your back door hoe.

You're something on the side; you're something to do during those lonely weekends, your closet freak.

You will never produce me to be a skank and a whore that will love you.

I'd rather spend every night crying alone on my bedroom floor than to ever be "that girl!"

- Alysia Harris
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